Thursday, September 20, 2007

dear diary

i should be reading.
or writing with pen and paper--
nah, i'm too tired for that.
i think reading sounds lovely.

but before i do i'm going to type something here.
i think maybe i'm too tired for that, too.
i'm 28 years old, probably too old to be writing
a completely self-absorbed and pointless blog entry.

sometimes i'm completely self-absorbed and pointless.

fall is eating eating at my insides.
i feel so melancholy at times.
i was talking about this to a friend
and he said that fall accentuates
wherever he is emotionally at the time.

that made a lot of sense to me.
i guess it's a melancholy fall this year.
it will serve its purpose,
whether i know what that is or not
whether i like it or not.
and that's okay.

-nicole

2 comments:

  1. i've always felt my memories are clearer in colder weather. don't really know why. maybe it's the accentuating of which you speak.

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  2. Yeah, fall/winter really do that to me, too.

    And who is too old to be creative? We have so many edicts on what we're supposed to do age certain ages. I think beyond some silly things (like behavior someone might associate with bratty/annoying children), we wall off life too much. Play with toys! Have an imagination! Ponder yourself sometimes. Write on an Internet blog. Why is it for kids? That's silly.

    I hope you feel better soon, though. I don't know what my cold weather mood will be this year ... I hope it's good, though.

    Anyway, I've talked enough. Hopefully we'll get to chat soon. Have a great day!

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